The Experience of Missing You

it’s like 

I’m time traveling

zooming, back and forth

I don’t want to 

I want to stay present

I want to move forward

but I can't without you

so I keep going backwards 

dipping into the past

trying to make experiences of you last

forgetting you're not there

but right here helping me 

create even more 

life-changing memories

I know

I feel you near 

though sometimes I fear

it’s my wanting deceiving

me into believing 

that you are

I still believe it because

sometimes that's all I have